So...

Oddly enough, I am now in a situation which everyone around me dreads. I am alone, in a physical sense. My parents have always been terrified of me being alone. Living alone, not having enough friends, not dating ect. When I put it on paper it sounds bad but they kind of have a point. I'm an introvert, people exhaust me. It takes physical oomph for me to be around people. So when I'm alone, I stay alone. I avoid going out. I don't necessarily love being alone but I'm not calling up anyone to keep me company. Its peaceful. Anyways, why I'm alone. My roommate is out of town for 3 weeks, my brothers are busy with their shit and my boyfriends across the state. I am literally alone. Its interesting. I'm curious to see how it plays out, if I do well or if I go a little crazy. It would be a whole different story if he was here. It would be good news to be alone of 3 weeks because he could come over at any time. I'm not saying its bad news, I was actually kind of excited, but I'm also a little worried. More about being bored to death. But if he was here. Man, we could have fun. But he's not, because I choose boyfriends that are across the state for a reason. I should get used to an empty apartment, I mean more than likely I will be a single room apartment lady for the majority if not rest of my life. Sounds pathetic but it really isn't. Females are the only ones that are worried about that anyways. And I refused to be worried about it. If I worry then I'll turn into a desperate fool.

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